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Sunday, 14 December 2008
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Miss being in love..
Okay so it might sound odd, but I actually miss the feeling of being in love with someone and them loving you. Not all the bad stuff obviously, but I miss that overwhelming emotion you can feel for someone.
And how intense it can be with that other person. Its such an amazing thing.
As much as I'm bitter about love because of the past, I still think its a very special thing, although I often claim it is over rated. It can be,I mean I hate it when people pity me because I'm single, mainly due to the fact I am happy with my status. I can accept it, why can't other people?
But yeah I just felt like saying about that...it feels strange to yearn for it...
I'd rather not, love scares the hell out of me.
It really takes control of your life, makes you do silly things.
I wander if anyone else has ever felt like they miss being in love though?
or is it just me haha.
I'm not a needy person...so its not like thats the reason I miss it.
Well LOVE to you all ^_^
Friday, 12 December 2008
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UGH..and ^_^ at the same time..
Im thinkin now, if I spend much more time with you, I'll fall for you.
I can tell that ache is starting to appear, the one when you're missing someone.
Now is the time to decide ; do I run from this? Or let myself go in deeper?
I know what I should do.
I know what I want to do.
I know what I need..
Ugh..im happy but feel slightly unsettled.
Too many complications, im not sure its worth the risk
I use this blog like a diary haha, I know not many ppl will read it. Only one person who defo will and I dont care I luvs her.
Also on a cheerier note...I loves my hobo gloves, im not takin them off
and my dinner was nice
and I love my camera <3
Today was gd, im tired now haha.
Wednesday, 10 December 2008
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Just a little note to say Ignorance is bliss...
Is very true.
In which case I'll live in ignorance so I can live in bliss with you.
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Jealousy....?
So er. Touchy subject I guess jealousy. Most people don't want to admit when they are and some people seriously can't control it.
Im sort of inbetween, I think I can admit it, depending what its about...but I have trouble controlling it.
I hate it, because it makes my life so much more difficult. Jealousy leads to feelings of dislike and I dont want to feel like I dislike someone merely because they are hangin out with the guy I like or because they have nicer clothes than me/are prettier.
Im really trying to keep it under control to make my life easier, its just proving very difficult.
Im also gettin the urge for more change, i recently got more of my tattoo half sleeve done but I want more changes!! I'm thinkin a new hair cut.
Anyway its highly irritating.
I just needed a tiny rant about it plus I havnt blogged for a few days.
Friday, 05 December 2008
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One more blog today...Im scared of..
Falling for someone again (not love I guess, just that over all intense emotion for someone..altho I spose that too) , it makes me vulnerable. I dont think I can do it...I want to run, run awayy
I know I cant avoid tht hurt again forever though, so maybe its time to take the plunge?
Its always nice while it lasts and then eventually you get over it when it ends and do it all over again a while later. Im not sure what the point of it is, other than to fulfill our selfish needs of affection, sex and wanting to be needed.
I like being alone though, I know I can do it now. So I spose the inevitble end of something doesnt scare me in that sense, not the fact I'll be alone, just the fact I shall once again be givin my trust to someone, letting them partially be responsible for my happiness.
And then there will be hurt along the way, hurt I hope I can deal with.
But I want them, I know I do..so..I think its time.
Wish me luck!!
PinkPixieLily
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Im a bit of a geek when it comes down to it all, I love my tattoos, reading, drawing, taking photos and going out drinking ^_^.
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